' laura twenty-one on 140608 Having found the elements of joy, she is contented and blessed for all that she has in her life. (:
Unconditional love, let me tell you something; I love you just the same if not a little more.
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About Me
If, I ever found
A wishing carpet lying around,
I'd stand upon it and I'd say:
"Take me to his side, right away!"
And then we'd travel very far
To where the magic countries are
That you and I will never see
And choose the loveliest gifts for you, from me.
I feel uber selfish all of a sudden. ): I wish I could kidnap you now until the date of your flight is long over so that you can stay here in Singapore. I wish we had gone out tgt earlier so that I won't have this sad feeling that I am gg to see you a few more times before you go back to THAT place. I wish that you were gg back to me like before, but this time, you are gg away from me. I wish that we could go back there tgt, because you know, I need you and you need me when we are in that gerzee-merzee place.
"You never fully appreciate what you have until you lose it." Yeah. For the past year that we've been back, we never bothered to catch up; distance was always an issue with you in the East and me in the West. But now, I realise that this distance cannot be compared to the hundreds and thousands of miles that's gg to separate us soon. That vast sea and all the different islands dotted in between. I wish I could erase them from the atlas so that we could be nearer.
I had fun with you on Saturday. I really did. And I am glad that we didn't change. When we were talking on Friday night about feeling all different with our best friends ( or maybe ex-best friends ) when we meet them again years later, I was feeling skeptical. I was afraid that we were gg to be like that and we would feel awkward tgt the next day. But I am glad that we were not. We were just like before. It was as though we had never been apart for an entire year.
At the arranged time, I was looking for a girl who was looking all harassed with wind-blown hair. That's how I remember you when you were late in meeting me when we were in SH. And there you were, looking for me in contacts but not noticing me 'cos I had decided to wear my specs. The same ol' blur you. (; Halfway through the day, I was already having sorethroat from all the chatting. Amazing how topics can never be exhausted between us. Even when we were living tgt, we could still talk everyday and night, and still have things to say to each other that we have to sms secretly in class. I love that.
Though we had many misunderstandings and hiccups in between, I am glad that we pulled through. At every stage, I hated what was happening to us but looking back now, I am glad for those hiccups cos we got to know each other better through it and we worked round them. Despite Alex, despite the times when our actions pissed each other off.
There was a time when I was always out with Annie & Simon and you were always out clubbing with Sang Hyun & Michelle. That period of time was horrible. We would come home to each other and smile to each other but inside, we didn't really feel like smiling to each other at all. It felt so awkward to be living together at the point of time because anyone could see that I would rather be with Annie & Simon and you with Sang Hyun & Michelle. And then I realised that it was because you were feeling lonely and left out when I spent most of my day with Annie & Simon and I was feeling lonely and left out too when you were out clubbin through the night with Sang Hyun & Michelle. I didn't really like waking up in the morning without you at home or waking up with you all konked out on your bed. I realised and acknowledge those facts but I didn't apologise to you before for making you feel left out. But after a while, we got back to the same us and you won't know how elated I felt ! (: Oh, you know. There was this night that I came home to see Sang Hyun at our place and for some reasons, I was feeling pissed off with that fact cos I had expected to have been asked about it. Then I stomped around the room and I tripped and sprained my toe. Lols. ;p
Remember "Ha Ka Qiao" ? Remember the night rides to Huai Hai for I-can't-remember what reasons ? Remember all the shopping sprees that we had at XiangYang, People's Square, Xiang Gang Ming Dian Jie etc and me doing all the impulsive stuffs ? Remember us bluffing those ignorants that we were Koreans, Americans, Africans and other what nots ? Remember me using your MSN to kid Sang Hyun that I was your African friend and he falling for it ? Remember the night that we didn't sleep cos I was having trouble with YX and you came over and after that, we bought birthday breakfast for Sang Hyun and even sent it to his doorstep ? Remember the nights that we sat at People's Square talking about our lives ? Us eating at YYY, Orange Cafe, the mall-that-has-a-Singapore-feel, ma-la-tang and basically, all over the place ? Oh, and the only-open-at-3am shop.
I miss the nightly walks that we had. Walking all over the place with no destination in mind and having just enough money to bargain a cabride home so that we could go out and have our supper ? The nights that we brought Scripp, Scrapp and Scoop out for walks in winter and people thinking that we were mad cos we were only clad in SHORTS, SLIPPERS and a pullover. And the giggles that we shared whenever some random strangers shout at me 'cos I was wearing a skirt in the middle of winter but it was never actually as cold as they make it to be. How you would always slip your hands into my pockets because you were cold or when you were too cold, you would put your hands underneath my clothes because I was the 24/7 heater. The fire that we started with Seven all because we wanted to make birthday breakfast for Michelle. The time when Seven went over to your place to study with us before we moved in tgt and the table broke and I was feeling embarassed and you were just feeling worried cos it was Kenneth's table. Hahaha. I just wanna laugh about Kenneth's pok room cos the washing machine broke down and flooded his room. The times when we crashed each other's lecture. Me and you gossiping about Sang Hyun in class with the person in mind either just beside us or behind or in front of us. The time you saved me during my first and last sketching class cos the teacher was mean enough to say that my drawing sucked and I dropped the module just like that. The meetings at Lilian Cakeshop when you have lessons at B block while I had lessons at the main building.
When we bound together cos those ignorants tried to bully us thinking that we were idiots. The time at Mei Luo Cheng when I was about to break the glass at the bitch's shop, the stupid taxi driver who drove us in such a lok kok car and still dare to charge us 50RMB. Those nights that you had to literally dragged me home 'cos all I wanted was to cab. And you would start singing Blue to keep me walking. The time when we went to buy breakfast at Mac before taking a bus to skl and when we reached our stop, I alighted and stood there munching on my burger waiting for you to alight too. But the bus went off and I thought you had went to class so I went to my building, still happily munching on my burger when you called and shouted "F***!" like really really loud cos the driver didn't want to wait for you to squeeze yourself out of the bus. The time when we crossed the river to the other side to see how it was like and it was the squatters' area. How we were both damn scared cos we were afraid they would kidnap us or sth. How we finally got accosted by this pehpeh who was damn friendly with us and brought us around to visit his friends. It was scary yet enlightening cos we got to see how the poor people lived. Then he brought us up to the rooftop so that we could see the whole squatters area and he started rambling along, telling us about the history of that place. And both of us looking dead serious, nodding our head and mumbling, "Oh.. Yuan lai ru ci." randomly and all the time, we were feeling fuckin' cold and couldn't wait to get out of that place. And after meeting that pehpeh's family, he even offered to get his daughter to bring us around SH. HORRORS. So we kept our mobile phones shut. And when we got home, we realised that actually neither one of us understood what the pehpeh was talking about the entire time we were up on the roof.
One of the best times in my life was spent with you and the reason that it was so good was mainly because of you too. Though it wasn't exactly carefree [ best & carefree memory would be in Vietnam with my girls. ] I still enjoyed myself tonnes with you. (: I wish you wouldn't go back there without me but I guess, God has already laid out his plans for you. For now, I shall not think of that dreaded day but continue to have fun with you. Friday night at Harry's Bar, dear. (: NAla & LAna; always growing together.
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He said bye to me today. (:
Ahhh. Fuck that. ):
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2 lecturers have talked to me today. Fuck that too. I need to sort myself out like really soon ! ):