' laura twenty-one on 140608 Having found the elements of joy, she is contented and blessed for all that she has in her life. (:
Unconditional love, let me tell you something; I love you just the same if not a little more.
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About Me
If, I ever found
A wishing carpet lying around,
I'd stand upon it and I'd say:
"Take me to his side, right away!"
And then we'd travel very far
To where the magic countries are
That you and I will never see
And choose the loveliest gifts for you, from me.
Places that I wanna go, or better, live in next time !
- Tuscany, Italy - Provence, France
Actually, there's more but I am not gg to be greedy. Either one of these 2 will do. ((: Now, who wants to be nice and make my wish come true ? :D
Back to serious stuffs, 10 days has past so fast ! My family's coming back tmr. Half elated but half sad too. Lols. Elated because they are finally coming home after so long and yet sad cos I no longer am totally liberated when they are back. Which means, I can't spend as much time with him as I do now. Boohoo. But it's aiight. God will find a way for me, for us ! ((:
Been sleeping my days away when I am supposed to be mugging and rushing my projs. Okays, Jasmine. I am gg to start to mug hard tmr ! Don't start screaming at me yet. Hehehe. Oh yes, and I am gg to go do my practicum on Friday ! So, photos after Friday ! ((:
God is good. He never forsakes us. Don't be afraid;... I have called you by name; you are mine. When you go through deep waters and great trouble, I will be with you. Isaiah 43:1,2 . I actually thought that I was gg to have a sucky ending for such a great year. Things seemed to be gg all wrong at first and I was very nearly losing grip and losing my sanity. But thank God that I held on right till the end and everything's looking bright and happy for me now. ((: Very happy and blessed Laura here.
Oh yes, people. Whatever you read in my blog, stays in my blog aiight ? Please don't go around saying I wrote what.
soliloquy ; signed off at 3:02 PM
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Merry Xmas ! ((:
Merry Xmas, people ! Hope you'll all have a ball of a time today. This time last year, I was still in Shanghai bawling my eyes out on a bus cos I was all alone and I hated it. I was so used to having the whole extended family with me on Xmas day but last year was different. It was worse when I called home and everyone was like, "Ey, how are you ? We are having so much fun at your house now you know !" And all I could manage was, "Oh is it ? That's nice. T.T "
This year's nearly the same too. My family's not here since they are overseas. The whole extended family's not here too cos it's usually my family who holds the party. But, I feel aiight this year. Maybe it is because I am used to a lonely Xmas alr or maybe it's because I have received the best present that I could have. I can only say that I am so glad that I didn't give up when I could and I held on. Thank you, God. ((:
Okays. I think I shall end here. Gg to go watch TV now. Heh heh hehs. Oh yes, I caught Narnia last night and I recommend it to you people. I love that show ! :D
soliloquy ; signed off at 10:01 AM
Monday, December 19, 2005
It's hols ! Not .
Shucks. I am getting from bad to worst. Just can't seem to update. I just keep deleting what I've wrote. The brain just refuses to work, the feelings just can't come out in words.
It's hols now and yet, in a way, it is not. I have an entire week of make up lessons and so, that leaves just one week of hols. So much to do, so little time. )):
- shopping - gg to the beach - catching flicks - catching up with friends whom I've neglected during term time
Bla. The list goes on. Out of which, many are supposed to be done with my dear yaya ball's wife. :D And speaking of that, I hope my dear Madmine feels better soon. Meow ! Feel better soon ! See you like that, I feel quite worried. Hahaha. Hugs. I'm here 24/7 ! ((:
Events that have happened..
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Actually, there's nothing much. Hahaha. It's been another period of just skl, home, sleep.. Skl, home, sleep. But it's aiight. I enjoy the company of Madmine and Xin in skl. They keep me sane and are always there to support me though I am uber sorry that I keep moodswinging at times and make them worried. Hehehe. ;p love you girls.
I miss Vietnam. I wish I could go back there with Jasmine and Xin again and have another fortnight's worth of free days. Days are stressfree and without worries. And all that matters is what is gg on there and then.
This has been a random entry. I feel jaded. Till the next time. (:
soliloquy ; signed off at 8:47 PM
Thursday, December 01, 2005
The Diary
There she was again. Her figure, her grace, even the evening sun seemed to be frosty cold in comparison to that warm smile. If an angel had chosen to descend upon the Earth at that moment, I woud look at that angel and see a terrifying monster. But I would not tell her. My love of ten thousand could not match my fear of one harsh word from her.
For.. Everywhere I go, I would see her. Everywhere I go, I would hear her. For everywhere she went, I would go. If she were to sail across the ocean, my love would send me walking across it. If she were to admire a volcano from a helicopter, I would stand in the licking flames. And school became heaven and hell all at once. I fear not my teacher's tongue nor the principle's punishment. But I could not stand something so near yet so far - her attention. She sat beside me, in the same kind of chair, using the same type of table. I joked and rebelled, I screamed and I fought. But all I could get was her chilly stare and a "stop it !". Still those words were not harsh. They were music to my ears. Every word she spoke, every syllable she articulated; they were the voice of the angelic choir in chorus.
I hoped my eyes would give me away and my love would come to me. I love you, I do ! they screamed yet she could not tell.
Hell and high waters would be preferable than this torture, this inhumane torture. Someone ask me, please ! I begged, but none would; none, but my trusty old diary. I penned the thoughts and poems that erupted in my brain each time I saw her. My diary was my confidante, but it could not reply. My secret, a secret I was dying to tell, could not come out. So I purposely accidentally dropped my diary as we emerged from the classroom for a break. She picked it up and I purposely accidentally opened it - the other way round. She blushed as our hands met under the book. It was not my story anymore, but ours, a story we could build together. She looked at me the way I looked at her. How stupid I have been, I knew, she loved me too.
And there she was again, that evening. Her figure, her grace, the evening sun was frostier than ever beside that now all too familiar warm smile. If an angel descended now I would not notice, so long as she was there. And now I would tell her, my love of ten thousand still could not match my fear of one harsh word from her, but that word, I knew, would not come.